A Stressful Two Weeks

Hello Everyone,

I'm sitting here at my desk.  I've had a horrible last two weeks.  It is amazing how one person's absence can make a huge difference in my life.  Stephanie's death has changed how I feel about life.  I guess it makes me aware how valueable each person is and how important it is to ensure that they know how you feel about them. 

Recently in discovering more about my relationship, I have become more vulnerable to my feelings.  I try to keep them suppressed but that has been difficult.  I have found myself a bit more angered at the world since Stephanie's death.  I wish she would have known that she has family who would have helped her through her stuff. 

I'm not an expert in psychology, however, I am 35 years old and have lived a long life to where I could have given her some advice to help her.  My feelings are surfacing at work.  I have been more angered with my boss, who is inefficient and unfocused.  My boss is facing her own demons but has allowed it to affect our team and her work.  I have been given most, if not, all of the responsiblities that she normally handles.  She asked me the other day if I felt she disrespected me.  My response was yes, and I felt undervalued.  I guess my boss' own fears are affecting me as well.

I've been reading everyone's blogs and I'm quiet impressed with them.  I love the honesty behind them all and hope to continue reading them.  I plan to take my blog a bit further than this class assignment.  I plan to use this as a vehicle to help get my book, "I think I've had enough." started.  I need a place where I can jot down my thoughts about life.  My life has been difficult in the last 10 years.  I have struggled, been abused by my partners, but I have found my way through.  Their mistakes are my strength.  I'm stronger and smarter now.  One of the biggest lessons I learned from all of them is to focus on me.  I'm back at UT to finish up my degree in Public Relations. 

One of the things I have discovered is that I know I'm made for something special.  I don't know what it is yet but the fog seems to be getting clearer as I move through my courses.  Lately, I've been feeling like animal adovacy is going to be the place where I focus my passion.  I've decided to create a facebook page for animal rights and adovacy. 

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