Hello Everyone,

Today is a beautiful day outside.  I'm stuck in my office working on resident accounts.  In a recent months, I have had the opportunity to discover the relationship of two fictional characters.  It has allowed me to figure out where I stand in life.

Last night, I told my mother that I was failing Stats.  "It is the worse thing besides Oscar Mayer bologna and cheese sandwiches,"  I told her. 

To be continued....

I'm back.  Sorry I had to cut off the post.  My job keeps me busy so trying to work and do school work can be trying sometimes.   I just got home from the office and decided that I would like finish my entry so that I can turn it in.  I'm extremely exhausted from a long day.  It might have something to do with the fact that I haven't eaten anything today. 

I'm a bit sad at the moment.  My partner is a big pain in my side.  It's almost like he forgets I exists but then when he is with me, I get all the "I love Yous" and you are "the best" from him.   This past week, he had dinner with a friend and I asked him to get me something.  "Oh I figured you would have eaten and I didnt hear you."  I always make sure that I ask if he wants anything when I go somewhere. I just dont feel heard.  Its something I had a talk with him this past Sunday night, and still, no change.  I just dont know what I can do.

This is another example of where I wish I could avoid my emotions.  It would be better for me to do so that I dont get hurt.  My mother has always been a great source of encouragement and always filled with advice.  Good advice is hard to come by.

Gene Roddenberry did a great job of creating a strong relationship between Spock and his mother.  It was a easy relationship to build within a few minutes of each story line.  I guess everyone can relate to a parent who they are close with. 

I'm being summoned for dinner.  I hope that you guys enjoyed reading my thoughts.  I plan to expand on this blog with more comparisons to my brother Spock.

Live Long and Prosper
M

Live Long and Prosper

A Stressful Two Weeks

Hello Everyone,

I'm sitting here at my desk.  I've had a horrible last two weeks.  It is amazing how one person's absence can make a huge difference in my life.  Stephanie's death has changed how I feel about life.  I guess it makes me aware how valueable each person is and how important it is to ensure that they know how you feel about them. 

Recently in discovering more about my relationship, I have become more vulnerable to my feelings.  I try to keep them suppressed but that has been difficult.  I have found myself a bit more angered at the world since Stephanie's death.  I wish she would have known that she has family who would have helped her through her stuff. 

I'm not an expert in psychology, however, I am 35 years old and have lived a long life to where I could have given her some advice to help her.  My feelings are surfacing at work.  I have been more angered with my boss, who is inefficient and unfocused.  My boss is facing her own demons but has allowed it to affect our team and her work.  I have been given most, if not, all of the responsiblities that she normally handles.  She asked me the other day if I felt she disrespected me.  My response was yes, and I felt undervalued.  I guess my boss' own fears are affecting me as well.

I've been reading everyone's blogs and I'm quiet impressed with them.  I love the honesty behind them all and hope to continue reading them.  I plan to take my blog a bit further than this class assignment.  I plan to use this as a vehicle to help get my book, "I think I've had enough." started.  I need a place where I can jot down my thoughts about life.  My life has been difficult in the last 10 years.  I have struggled, been abused by my partners, but I have found my way through.  Their mistakes are my strength.  I'm stronger and smarter now.  One of the biggest lessons I learned from all of them is to focus on me.  I'm back at UT to finish up my degree in Public Relations. 

One of the things I have discovered is that I know I'm made for something special.  I don't know what it is yet but the fog seems to be getting clearer as I move through my courses.  Lately, I've been feeling like animal adovacy is going to be the place where I focus my passion.  I've decided to create a facebook page for animal rights and adovacy. 

Spock: My idol in life